As I wait in the airport for my flight to California, I reflect on the past year of memories. I traveled to and lived in Japan, I climbed Mt. Fuji, my friend Eric Gotwols passed on from this life, and I made substantial steps (networking with industry professionals and increasing knowledge/skills) toward becoming a Game Designer.
A lot has happened to transform the way I approach my daily walk, as well as the long term journey ahead. I continue to practice a mindful-approach to daily life, finding respite in the moment and peace in my infinite inhalation/exhalation. Though difficult, it is always better to pursue authentic happiness and leave fear and worry behind. I'm sure it is this type of energetic vibration that attracts me to positive situations and people, making life the continual breeze that my wings easily catch.
I continue to discover and practice new ways of improving myself, through martial arts, positive affirmations (a.k.a. Mind re-training), and intuition training. I also continue my online research of 'hidden news' concerning alternate perceptions of reality, the looming time/events of 2012, and the possibility of contact with human extraterrestrials (projectcamelot.org and divinecosmos.com). There's a lot going on, and I can feel time speeding up. Life seems to be a lot more harmonious; I keep seeing 11:11 (or similar times of repeated digits) and my heart whispers to me that life is simply a flowing river. Don't fight the current, be humble and follow it to my next destination.
California will be an awesome vacation. I can't wait to visit all my family and share stories of Japan, this semester at school, and funny ideas/creations of my imaginative mind. I feel like this trip will give me the opportunity to express myself in a new way, and to receive some new experiences as well. I will spending a three days at a hostel on Venice Beach, and then my options are quite open. I wonder where the river will run?
I recognize there is still much to prune on my life tree. I've got a few bad habits I'd like to see wither and die rather than me needing to pluck and watch grow back later. Those who know me best could probably guess what these things are, but I don't think I'll bring them up to anyone unless they become unruly... or if they continue long enough! I hope that by focusing my energy into nurturing my strengths, these 'personality weeds' will dry up from lack of attention.
The holidays are in full swing, it makes me think about the human family. With mixed feelings I look around this airport and see a race of species both united and divided. I wonder about the human condition and ask the universe if people will ever tame their own suffering, so they more effectively assist in helping others.
Christmas has got me thinking; this whole Jesus story about repenting from sin to escape judgement seems too masculine and 'old hat' for me. During last night's sermon, I kept wanting to hear about the power of Christ to unite his flock, that we are all precious children of the Cosmos, ANYTHING that could make us feel positively charged with the intention to turn to our fellow man, extend an open palm, and say “Brother, it's great to be here on Earth with you right now.” Instead, I could only feel a collective sigh of relief; “Whew, good thing that Jesus-guy died so long ago, or else we'd all be screwed.”
I hope the next generations of religion-followers will break free from the mental constraints that their theology chains them with. I pray that they will be able to recognize and respect their own power and creativity enough to escape the indoctrination of the Church like I did; but still I know that each person has the Free Will to will make their own choices about God and the Nature of Life. I guess I just want to see the confused and afraid people of this planet be able to walk about with heads held high, hearts healed and open to one another, and minds craving the mystery of life.
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